Behind closed doors my blood spills out. For none to hear for one o see. Behind closed doors I cry out toa god that I cant belive in. My eyes are wired shut and the feeling of the emptyness fills the recess I have no pain, for I am pain.. filling the holes that I myself have made in my all-too-weak flesh. Crawling like a worm under my skin I feel the emtyness stretch all throughout my soul and for thins I will never find you again.

And that is it for this time on RYANS WORDS OF POINTLESSNESS

Lost in the eternal darkness, my mind searches for the right of passage through your heart. And for this I breathe, but only barely. And for this my hope is lost for all eternity....

A life once lived doesnt mean a thing until you are dead...

Why slay the demons you have become?

And thats  it for this time on Ryans words of pointlessness...

~Amsel

Your hand, stretching from the abysmal depths of my mind takes me to a place that I have longed for so long. And yet there it remains from me entirely. I stretch my hand but my hand can feel nothing. My mind can not see any more. I am blinded by the darkness of the inevitable death. The glissining stream of emtyness and humility show up and wish for me to be gone. Only I agree with the stream and jump so that I can no longer worry about feeling or hoping or living. The darkness surrounds me and I dare not fight back. I see no light for there is none.. there never was. Then I see you. I see the darkness begin to takea hold of you and I cry out from the depths of my long since tortured soul and fight the darkness... for the first time.. ever... I fight.

Well thats it for Ryans words of pointlessness.... wait... yea thats it

~Amsel

Why do parents have to suck so much ass? I mean Jesus Christ why cant they understand the simplest things in life. Why cant they leave you alone. Or why even do they have to remind you every fukking waking minute that you are a failure and probably wont amount to anything. Sundays SUK.

Well now that I have that off my chest... yes I did find a whole shit load of pictures .. but I am Jewish Budah so its all good.

~Amsel